And they spent a considerable time with the disciples” Acts 14:28
I’ve hit a rough patch in my writing. For the past week, I have contemplated pausing the series. I love going through the book and learning as I go, but as it always does: life happened!
A week ago I spent almost every day at one doctor’s appointment or another with a sick little one. By God’s grace, he’s all well now and I am joyful over it!!! Of course while he was ill, he needed mommy’s comfort so writing was traded for hugs, snuggles, blank stares and meltdowns. Isn’t it just awful how uncomfortable they feel when they’re under the weather. They don’t always have the words to express it, but it’s quite obvious.
Somehow I pushed through the week and wrote in the wee hours of the morning when everyone else was resting.
I considered this to be a good solution and thought I had this thing figured out. When I came to Acts 14:28, I felt the weight of conviction. Somehow pushing through no longer felt like an accomplishment, but an undue burden.
Rest…this word has been on my mind ever since.
After a long missionary journey, with many trials and difficulties, the apostles went back to their church and there in the company of their brothers and sisters, they rested and fellowshipped. The thought occupied my mind so much that I wrote about it in my journal two evenings ago and prayed on it. I thought this would put it to rest for me, but it did not. Last night I shared it with my husband, and this too did not settle the issue. I continued to think about it, and wonder if it was time for ME to rest.
Naturally, my go-getter attitude took over and I did not explore resting any further.
Today somehow seemed like a rather long day. It wasn’t for any particular reason either. It was rather uneventful, other than a few toys ending up in the wrong location, but that is quite normal here. We began multiplication today, which Ty is very excited about, and T continues to sing the ABC song around the clock. He learned it last week. It was a good day, long but good. I sat down this evening and graded loads of work that awaited me from the past school week…and it occurred to me that the nagging thought and the weight was my own need for a period of rest. I was moving and moving, but now I guess it’s caught on.
I must admit that I struggled with this because, well…pausing a challenge that I took seems like throwing in the towel. It seems like admitting that I bit more than I could chew, or that I quit once the going gets tough. There are so many things I can tell myself to keep pushing…and sometimes it’s good!
Sometimes I need this strong push…
But, this time I believe pausing and resting is the wise thing to do.
Over the next 13 days, I will share reflections and verses from Acts that have been impactful to me. The full study will resume on Monday, November 2.
I pray it will be a refreshing season of rest, caring for the small disciples within my home and preparing to continue with this wonderful book.
I have grown so much already and as I sense the Lord’s call to stillness, I will listen and keep learning what lies in “un-rushing”.
I pray you’ll continue to read and participate as the month goes on, and when we pick up the study at the start of November.
So, the verse above is my first reflection verse:
And they spent a considerable time with the disciples.” Acts 14:28